A Man Wants to Adore

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You’ve got to grow,
Spread your heart and fly,
Stop hovering and holding on to air,
There’s nothing left from years ago,
Ridiculously and childishly,
You cling to,
What?
Should’ve,
Could’ve,
Treated your man right,
A gutter mouth is a bedroom delight,
Not a way to respect your man,
Not the way your words run amuck,
Stop running to seek and stalk,
Can’t compare hamburger to steak,
Aged rib eye is better than carving fat off grisly chuck,
Should’ve realized the gem you had,
Should’ve treated your loved ones good,
With ultimate respect,
Not only when you had to,
People change,
They evolve,
Get treated like they’re meant to,
Like they deserve,
Who wants vanilla when creme brûlée sits at your feet,
Who wants aggressiveness when submissiveness caresses,
And adheres to all commands,
A man’s treat,
Domineering behavior should come from the man,
Not some twisted behavior of some woman,
Know your place,
This ain’t apples and oranges,
You don’t compare to me,
I’m rare,
Exotic,
And I know my place,
Know how to treat a man of gold,
Like treasure,
Stand behind your king like a queen should,
Respect him,
His family,
Friends,
Feed him,
And become the submissive,
Ravishing whore,
A man,
Wants to adore.

Unlock My Heart

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As each tear dries
My level of love hides
As my emotions teeter
My anger is breaking the meter

I know to love
Breaks all the rules
I know to truly love
Meant I loved you

I opened my vulnerability ten-fold
I didn’t keep any walls up
I left the key to my heart
For you to have and hold

Now I’m angry with myself
For trying my hand at love
For loving the most selfish man
For thinking my love could soften your heart

Ah to love is foolish
Yet I try and try again to be brave
Hoping I find the right soul
Someone who wants to protect and unlock my heart

Taboo

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There are moments when it feels like I have swallowed a ton of bricks

My insides cave like a building during demolition clips

My heart follows and I am reminded of you

Just when I think I’m okay to move on, there you are my taboo

 

Some days my tears swell

And it stops right there I’m not Adele

I remind myself to let go you’re gone

This isn’t a love song, you did me wrong

Just when I think I’m okay to move on, there you are my taboo

 

I think back to all the days I gave you all my love

I gave you my heart and soul

You took the best part of me, my free-love

Your love in return was a black hole

Just like your soul, I fell through

 

I still taste the poison from your lips

An illusion of the moon and sun’s eclipse

There’s no beauty in the lifeless hell we danced to

It was nothing but a pass-through

Just when I think I’m okay to move on, there you are my taboo

 

I think back to all the days I gave you all my love

I gave you my heart and soul

You took the best part of me, my free-love

Your love in return was a black hole

Just like your soul, I fell through

 

Just when I think I’m okay to say good bye

Just when I think it’s okay to move on

There you are my taboo

Making me fall through

Stay away from me

You’re taboo

 

 

 

 

 

 

Free Me

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Those that carry all things

Feel everything as real

Every day is a struggle of intertwined vines of emotions

fear, love, pain, happiness, stress and anger

All surroundings are absorbed

Reminders of everything in an image to hold and release

Wings in a photograph

Find a way to free me

You Left Me To Die

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I looked in your eyes

They made me believe I could never get hurt

Your eyes were deceiving

They were just filled with dirt

 

I thought it was love

But it was only lies

How many lies did you tell her?

So many lies so many times I believed

So many lies

So many lies

I wanted to believe

 

I thought you were the one

Now I’m just done

You’re nothing but a liar

Someone to run from

 

Your words fired with a silencer

No one heard

You shot me deep

Left me to bleed

Your words used to hypnotize

I felt alive

You left me to die

 

You put me on a pedestal

Made me believe

I thought I was special

I was your goddess

It was all just make-believe

 

You filled me with lies

Shielded me from the truth

Shot with bullets

I don’t understand

Why?

 

I thought you were the one

Now I’m just done

You’re nothing but a liar

Someone to run from

 

Your words fired with a silencer

No one heard

You shot me deep

Left me to bleed

Your words used to hypnotize

I felt alive

You left me to die

Dragon Wolf

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He led me down into the inferno, I felt my soul start to melt away

Left me to contemplate my idealist ways

I burned in disbelief

I had to survive succumbing to the prince of darkness for temporary relief

I drank from the poisonous vile of mistrust

Ate from the bowl of lies in disgust

Pretended to savor these memories knowing it was the last time

Reckless words became my fix – oh what a crime

Spitting fire wasn’t just for kicks 

I had to survive these lunatics

A hopeless romantic turned bitter sweet

Barb wire caged my heart from deceit

Nice thoughts shot me with burning darts

Reaching deep inside my heart

I fought to find my way back 

To the others of my pack

With the soul of a dragon and the heart of a wolf 

I’m stronger than the desire to love another fool

Island of the Damned

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I battled love and I lost
I am banned from a universe of love
Exiled to an island for the unloved
I meet this new world in agony
My stomach pains me from the inside
My wounds are open and unable to heal
It is all so foreign to me
This place for the lonely
No one to love me
I feel the emptiness chipping away at my soul
My tears fight to remind me to wash away the pain
To cleanse the place from where I once came
To forget the hurt
Pretend that I am strong
I look the other way in disgust of my new existence
I fight the urge to cry
I didn’t want to settle
Short change my life
But here I am
Damned to the eternal pain from which I came.