Dream State Mind

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In the worlds visited through swift dreams
I’m not who I pretend to be
In day
Struggling with shyness inside -myself

I flow seamlessly
In the night
A roaring beast
Head held high

Only to wake
With empty thoughts
Memories trapped in places
Never to find – (a key, a door, or even a token)

I lie still
Concentrating for a moment
Praying for one thought to take me back
I beg to the unknown-send me back, to this extroverted land, where I fear nothing in a dream state mind

The Null Without You

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There was no me before you
No beauty in blue
No shine in light
Pitch darkness stood everywhere I turned
Day and night

Even in the middle of May
I stood empty
Without you
Without the love living in you

No music unearthed the null
I danced in silence
Numb to the world
No peace
Just pain
Hurt

Love was not love
Without you
My soul was not whole
Without you

Nothing made sense
Nothing to cure
The desire
For you

Just a poet
Without words
In modern day
Starved
Looking for you

Life was not life
Without you
My body without a soul
Without you

Art stared blankly in depth
The highs sat parallel to the ground
Deeper and deeper
The world was just eh
Without you

The Only Love For Me

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It was the gentle caress of your finger tips
They screamed love
As they massaged my face
While I laid restless in bed
Taken by fever
Your kind words
Wishing away
The virus consuming my soul
I see why this is called love
Not any kind of love-real love
The way you cared for me
The way you wanted to remove the monster from inside me
To help me
To protect me
I slept
You watched
You slept
I watched
You never left my side
You didn’t think you did much
The tender touches
Getting things
Doing things
Here and there
The little things-tender loving care
In a few days
It was more than a lifetime of childhood memories
Or any other memory, of any adult, capable of loving me
Surpassed in a weekend
By the love of a man
Not any man
My man
The only love for me

Scarlet

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Love not pure
Pretty little daisies
Delicately described
In an image of rouge

Skipping beats
Swept off your feet
You lie face down
Asking why?

Smeared tainted blood of mine
The knife deep
Pinned under a web of lies
For receipt deprives, the love I had in mind

Seduced purity
Give, give, give
This heart of mine
Waits to receive

He who taketh away
Swallows me whole
Leaves the pit of my soul
In a maze of scarlet decor

You’ve Awakened Me

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You’ve awakened my soul from the death of me
From the deepest sleep
I am now released and free
I am now yours to keep
Caged in a love society

Staring into the sky
Dreaming of the day
You and I fly
Starting our journey

We are all we need
You are all I need
You are all I have ever needed
You’ve awakened me

You are the moon and stars
Your love is my universe
Your soul
And my soul
Are one

You are all I have ever needed
You’ve awakened me

You are all I have ever needed
You’ve awakened me

Lets take flight
Say good-bye to yesterday
Disappear into the night
Co-mingle with the deities and destiny

Lets figure out how to love
Without pain
The way words write of
You and I are all we need on this astral plane

We are all I need
You are all I need
You are all I have ever needed
You’ve awakened me

Bipolar Madness

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Aching deep, can’t feel my heart
It’s not beating, make it leave
The pain is sharp
Dull bladed knife, cutting through my sleeves

Standing alone again, falling apart
Complete, in the dark
Living with the madness, my god
Make it stop

Return to me, peacefully alive
Let me lie across the grass
Stare into the somber sky
It’s an obscure task
I know, I know

Rescue me
From the bipolar mind
Return to me
Help me see, help me find
Me

Standing at a end
Trying to choose, buoyant or dejected
With my hands on my head
I closed my eyes, and prayed

Take Me To Where You Are

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I want to stay asleep
Where I can be near
Where I can touch you
My eyes struggle to wake
My body is restless
I stir
Not yet my soul detests
A few more minutes
Another hour
My mind sheepishly screams
Light creeps through the blinds
The alarm is buzzing
Daybreak has arrived
Sadly I must say good bye
Leave the comfort of my dreams
Face the world
Dancing in and out of the shadows
Searching out your scent
For a door
To the dimension
To take me
To where you are